I forgive myself for believing it was all my fault - and would always be that way - I forgive myself for not believing I had the right to say 'NO' - but then, I was just a kid - I forgive myself for believing that I had to suffer so that others wouldn't - believing it was too late for me - I forgive myself for believing I was not worth being protected - not like other kids - I forgive myself for not seeing where God was when those men chose to abuse me - for not knowing he didn't also choose it for me - I forgive myself for believing I couldn't question God - for allowing others to have their way with me when it didn't feel right - and for being confused - for believing it would always be this way - I forgive myself for believing I needed to protect and care for others at my own expense - that it somehow was my lot in life - but after all, I was just a kid, needing all kinds of forgiveness myself